The River of Eternal Salvation

hahaha. didnt realise its so long since i last updated it.....partly bcuz msn space really lags beyond human understanding...lyk wat i'm typin now is comin out lyk in chunks and bits in a few seconds each time....i hate this. ah well. gotta make do wif it i guess. dots. aniwaes, in this couple of months i realised how many perspectives can affect how one thinks and acts. be it in his walk wif the Lord or simply normal decisions made in everyday life. and perhaps sometimes as Man we think too much into details and forget the big picture of why we are doing what we are doing. the cross, the salvation, all had been lost in our entangled web of thoughts and eating us from the inside out and bein replaced by human knowledge and understandings. wat i had failed to understand is that God doesnt need to be understood more than wat is really needed. if we seek more than what we need to know, our answers will be of nothin from the Lord and everythin from our minds:misunderstandings,misconceptions. all these birthing out bitterness and doubt in the Lord. don't ask me why im givin such cheemnology outta sudden, im readin philosophy. so there.

 

all this happenings had been makin me think back of my calling, be it leader or not, comin back as a simple child, not one who comes wif knowledge but one that comes wif faith alone. if my walk is simply abt rising in leadership then perhaps i had been treadin on a wrong path...or i had mistook this 4 what i truly desired. if that is true then perhaps this is as far as this dream can bring me to, and that it's time to be awake. but if this 'theories' are yet ideas from a dry spirit'd mind, then i will continue to in this walk, along this spiritual sand beach that is washin away all my past footsteps, givin me no chance of turning back. if life is truly more than this, then may God show it to me once more. if it's a wound that i had recieved, then may His eternal grace heal me, it will be his 1000 steps, will i haf the faith to take that 1 step once more? i know the answer to this question even before i had pondered abt it, but will i be able to move along wif my answer?

 

it had been a long 1 month++. i am too tired right now to really be bothered abt wat i am suppose 2 do. all i ever wan is to hide under His magnificent wings once again, gainin the peace i had lost so long ago....or is that really what i wish 4? so much questions, so little time.

 

 

 

 

another camp had passed. lookin back its the third time im postin abt camp. ha. let's see.

 

moved loads of chairs...serve loads of ppl in this camp. be it in my ministry or my ppl. this camp is really abt His Kingdom.

i guess sometimes memories and experiences alone wont be able 2 bring u far, but its abt ur faith, ur love and passion 4 Him. (wisdom as well...according 2 gideon.) well. 4 days 3 nights to allow me 2 find my stand. either there for the kingdom or back for the world. not goin 2 be stuck here n stonin my life away. 2 wks to c if im up for it. i counted the cost. im ready to pay the price. my desire for Him, let it burn once again. my wordly desires, let it be burned as well in tt spiritual fire and let it continue no more. all of Him and none of me. that's my desire.

if i shld fall and crumble to let Him pick me up, den let me fall and crumble.

all for His glorious Kingdom and His grace.

 

Yes and Amen.

it's the time for yhope's twice-per-year-standard-church-camp-that-yields-different-live-changing-experiences.

4 days 3 nights. a near 1 wk of pure solid fellowship wif the First Love and the ppl ard us.

Really wanna c big things changin in my life in this camp.

Wanna:

Grow more faitful

Attain a new conviction

More conviction

And ensure i wont get my usual stomach issues that happens on random'ness...dad nearly freaked out wen i told him tt.

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And conviction.haha.

 

May God reveal His plan 2 me once more.

hmm. consider this a late post actually but ah well, lemme summarise it all up. the last page of the story is finally coming! with this ending a new story will start. some characters have gone to start their own legacy while the rest stayed behind to continue with a new chapter. 7 months had passed. 7 months of story now comin 2 an end. i wish and pray for the best of those castings of characters.

 

aniwaes. its finally the start of the hols. woot. this whole half a yr had been considered my most hectic, tirin, revitalising, more tirin, more recharged half a yr. many stuff had happened so fast and quickly i cant believe its alrdy half the yr. lots of relationships to be mend and many more to begin. im writin a new chapter for this legacy im leavin behind. and it's june once more.....at last. THE camp is HERE AGAIN!. can't wait for the many more life changin experiences that comes with it. more sleep-overs. more people...more roles as well. hahaha. apparently my prayer and complain had come to pass. my whines of always the game master had earned me not only the roles of game master but also house keeping team leader (omgxxzz...and yes i volunteered.) and also mama shop team leader (i haf no idea how i got into it..but i jus did). gonna be an interestin camp. wif so many roles pray tt i will be able 2 find tym for my ppl as well.

 

cant wait for more of this 1 mth br8k. really wanna use it 2 the fullest for my ppl and KOG. no tym 2 waste. the last page is ending and the new one is startin. now tym 2 dwindle. gotta start 2 move on. gotta start leavin legacies.